Writer’s Toolbox

I created this post/story using “The Writer’s Toolbox,” which was created by Jamie Cat Callan.

In this delightful box, are three bundles of sticks. As I wrote, I drew one stick from each bundle and tried to include it in my story.

The first stick I drew was “The only way John could pass the exam was by cheating.” The second: “If you don’t take chances,” said the man in striped pajamas, “you might as well not be alive.” The third: “He was skating on thin ice – that’s all I can say.”

Here goes:

The only way John could pass the exam was by cheating. John was ashamed to be even be thinking of doing it. He had never had to cheat before, but his life had become quite chaotic and suddenly, he found that he didn’t have enough time for his studies. He was a junior in high school who got straight As, but now he felt like everything was falling apart.

It started last week (how could have it only be a week?, he constantly asked himself) when his father came home drunk for the third time in four days. John’s mother was in one of her moods and screamed at her husband until he left, the screen door slowly coming to a stop. The next day, John found his dad dead on their neighbor’s driveway. He had been driven over as the car rushed to work. The funeral was set for tomorrow, the day after this miserable exam.

The day that John saw the body and called 911  was frozen. It was the first day that John had missed in a year. He remembered a man in striped pajamas was there watching the body bag’s route to the ambulance. John asked the man who he was and the man turned to him with eyes that were turned inward and said, “If you don’t take chances, you might as well not be alive.”

His father’s funeral was set for tomorrow and he had to pass this stupid test. He thought of the strange man’s words and thought that whatever he did with this exam was a chance. But if he cheated, he might have a bigger chance of getting a better score. He tried to see the paper of Samantha Goldstein, who sat on his right and who he had an on and off crush on for years. The first question asked who Henry VIII’s first wife was. John was pretty sure it was Catherine of Aragon, but Samantha had selected Anne Boleyn and now he wasn’t sure.

He considered the man’s words again, closed his eyes, and picked the first answer his pencil alighted on. Well, he thought. At least I’m not a cheater. He looked through the rest of the test. There were a couple answers that he knew right away, but on the rest he executed the eyes-closed-pick method. He was skating on thin ice, he was sure, but he did it anyway. His life had changed and so had he.

 

Things I Know about Dementia

Last night my brain was keeping me awake by thinking, so I wrote this, titled Things I Know about Dementia:

1. It creeps on you slowly. Your loved one is tucking you in at night and then she’s wandering down her street trying to catch a bus home.

2. You visit her in the nursing home and she’s aware enough to follow you to the door begging you to take her home.

3. You can’t take her anywhere anymore, even to Thanksgiving dinner with family, because she became so agitated after last time that she broke a window.

4. You are told that she is losing a lot of wight and she probably won’t last a year.

5. Your sister cries, but you never do. You write instead.

6. Your dad tells the nursing home staff how much she likes dessert. She instantly gains weight.

7. You hear that a resident punched her after she took their food an you laugh. It is the only way to cope.

8. She doesn’t ask to go home anymore. She can’t say a full coherent sentence.

9. She hasn’t recognized you for a long time.

10. You go off to college. The next time you see her, you are shocked by the changes. She is now so frail that she cannot walk. She’s in a wheelchair and uses her feet and the walls to push herself.

11. You visit her whenever you come home from college, scared that you won’t be able to say goodbye.

12. You pass a lady who is screaming because she couldn’t get out of the nursing home. You can’t help feeling glad that your loved one never did that.

13. You hold her hand while your dad pushes her. She drops your hand for a second, but grabs it suddenly like she was afraid you are the one leaving her.

14. You study her face and try to remember what she used to look like.

 

“Real” books

Sorry its been a fairly long time since I’ve posted. Its been a crazy two weeks finishing up my summer class.

Recently I saw this quote by Laurie Halse Anderson, the author of Speak:

“You can tell a book is real when it makes your heart beat faster. Real books make you sweat. Cry, if no one is looking. Real books help you make sense of your crazy life. Real books tell it true, don’t hold back, and make you stronger. But most of all, real books give you hope. Because it’s not always going to be like this and books – the good ones, the real ones – show you how to make it better. Now.”

This got me thinking about books that I’ve read that have done these things for me. In a way, all books have done this for me, but some have been forgettable while some have stood out in my memory for a variety of reasons. And then some of them have changed my life or at least my way of thinking.

10 “real” books that I’ve discovered:

1. Just Listen by Sarah Dessen

2. The Book Thief by Markus Zusak

3. The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath

4.The Storyteller’s Daughter by Cameron Dokey

5.Send by Patty Blount

6. The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger

7.Letters to a Young Poet by Rainer Maria Rilke

8.Darkness Visible by William Styron

9. Green Angel by Alice Hoffman

10. Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher

There are so many “real” books that have devoured me. These are just the ones (excepting The Bell Jar) that I have on my bookshelf.

What “real” books have you read?