“Whatever you are, be a good one.”

This quote, often attributed to Abraham Lincoln, is currently hanging above my sink to look at whenever the dishes are piled too high.  Whether it was actually said by the 16th president or not, nobody knows, but as in some things (but certainly not all), the author of the statement matters less than its meaning.

If the statement had said “whoever,” it wouldn’t be as remarkably unique. Instead, it starts with the word “whatever.”  “Whatever is a word that has been infamously used by teenagers to annoy adults, usually parents and sometimes teachers. But when applied to a person, it becomes intriguing and somewhat confounding.

“Who” I am can be answered in facts like my name, my date of birth, my marital status. “What” I am is harder to answer. For the first five years of my life, I was something then for the next five or so, I was something else. Each year since then, I’ve been trying to become something more like me. But the trouble is… I didn’t know exactly what “me” was.

As I enter into my twenties, I think I know more about what “me” is:

1.a daughter

2.a sister

3.a roommate

4.a writer

5. a thinker

But aren’t these things facts as well? I am a daughter. I am a sister to my older siblings. I am all those other things. But facts are solid and don’t generally change. The words I have come up with to describe myself are always changing.

The daughter and sister that I was when I was six is dramatically different, I hope, than the daughter and sister I am. And since my roommate situation has changed over the semesters, I have changed as a roommate. I have always been a thinker, but it hasn’t been until the last few years that I’ve considered myself a writer.

“Whatever you are, be a good one.”

The quote charges us to be a good one of whatever we are. So… I should not only strive to be a writer, I should be the best I can be. That may not necessarily mean that my products will be good or that they will touch people as long or profoundly as Shakespeare, C.S. Lewis, Jane Austen, or Emily Dickinson, but will be good enough. Of course that extends to every other “what” that I am.

My aim is to be a good daughter, sister, roommate, and eventually wife and mother. But then there’s the question of what “good” is.

I think I’ll leave that for another rainy, snowy, or otherwise  lazy day.

Smell/Taste/See

In honor of finals almost being done, I want to do a writing exercise.

Prompt: Make a list of objects. Pick one that you can smell, one you can taste, and one you can see and write on each object for three minutes.

1. the smell of leftovers

The split pea soup was from two days ago. It smelled cold and moist, like it was slowly dying to climb into my stomach or into the trash can. The contents sizzled in the microwave and when I pulled it out, it enveloped me in green haze of cooked pea smell and rain in the evening and flowers poking out of the snow and getting called to dinner and my stomach rumbling in anticipation of the next meal it would digest.

2. the taste of lipstick

I bite into my sandwich, forgetting momentarily that I still had my deep red lipstick on. My stomach churns at the sight of the red half circle now implanted on my lunch, but I’m hungry and I have to be back in my costume in 20 minutes. Closing my eyes, I feel the taste of my ham tinged with metal invade my mouth and creep its way down my throat. The taste of tears, sweat, iron, and sickeningly fake redness cling onto my taste buds for the Waltz of the Snowflakes.

3. the sight of orange spray paint

Orange against black in a dark tunnel. It gleams bright under superficial light. It is a gang sign with a meaning I don’t know. The orange screams Caution! I’m dangerous! and Caution! We don’t want you here! It screams of innocence lost and youth trying to find themselves, but failing.

 

Currently (Re)reading

I think there’s a certain attraction to rereading a book. Just like seeing a movie for a second time, rereading allows the story and the language to fully sink in.

Right now I am rereading A Sweet Far Thing, the last book in the Gemma Doyle trilogy by Libba Bray.

One reviewer on audible.com wrote this about her experience with this magnificent series:  “Well, I might not be smart enough to get it,  it was overall a repetitious imaginary land of witches, witchcraft, fantastical beings, or maybe hobbits that went the wrong way looking for “precious”. Well, it wasn’t that great.”

It is an understatement to say that I was outraged by this reviewers’ view. It most certainly provoked a loud and rambling rant that I’m not quite sure was coherent.

I think this trilogy is magnificent because:

  1. Libba Bray’s language is deliciously spectacular.
  2. While it is listed as YA, there are certain themes (like sexual abuse and addiction) that a middle school reader might not have understood.
  3. It does reflect on serious issues, but it has a lot of humor. For instance, the main character complains that “The trouble with mornings is that they come well before noon.” As I woke up at seven for my eight o’clock class this morning, I completely understand.
  4. It does not have a particularly happy ending. It might sound odd to list this as a pro, but I think so often writers are so pressed to make all endings happy, that some of them don’t come out quite real.
  5. Libba Bray did a lot of research on the Victorian era and it shows because she captured the strict rules of that period quite nicely.

As always, if you  haven’t had the pleasure of reading this series, I would definitely recommend it.

If you have already read it, I would love to hear your thoughts.

Words: Beautiful vs. Ugly

Many beautiful words are beautiful because they sound appealing and then some of them are attractive to us because of their meaning. Ugly words are exactly the opposite. Some are ugly because they grate against the ears and many are unattractive because of their social connotations. With the help of my roommates, here are lists I compiled on words from both ends of the spectrum.

Beautiful words

  1. hallelujah
  2. waterfall
  3. chartreuse
  4. glinting
  5. gurgle
  6. penultimate
  7. the right word (The difference between the right word and the almost right word is the difference between lightning and a lightning bug – Mark Twain).
  8. luminosity
  9. glide
  10. gilded
  11. majesty
  12. denouement
  13. love
  14. live
  15. veritable
  16. swaying
  17. swish
  18. zest
  19. juxtaposition
  20. harmony
  21. cacophony

Ugly Words

  1. fart
  2. zit
  3. moist
  4. hashtag
  5. lack
  6. venial
  7. ratchet
  8. retard(ed)
  9. twerk (as in the dance move)
  10. any curse word (my personal opinion)
  11. bummer (sounds too much like butt, according to my roommate)
  12. crack
  13. diss
  14. fail
  15. hack
  16. fat
  17. the wrong word
  18. bloat
  19. vomit

There are so many others  as the languages of the world are several and as each language have a multitude of words.

What words are beautiful or ugly to you?